Joyous Peeve's

Yes, here I am again... sitting in the position of unproductive intentions with the need to complete so much. Really does anyone know how to motivate themselves to save the pain of last minute stress? if so please enlighten me. Well I guess I could sit here and bitch about this all night long but what's the point :s... Today I realized one of my biggest pet peeves.... poor communication. I really cannot stand people that lack the skill of communication though I guess we all lack this at some point. I really don't know where to start on how much it pisses me off, people not being able to properly say what is happening, what they expect, what they want out of something or really just saying what they want to say... I know that some people have problems with this and I understand that, its just those that do this consistently that I cannot stand. Why must people try and pathetically elude to desired outcomes, either we know what they want or we have no clue... There's no point in hiding it. Also what's the deal with people who are passive aggressive... if your going to get pissed off you might as well do it productively, by getting back at people indirectly how does anyone learn (no this has not happened to me lately but just the thory angers me)... Anyway enough whining for one night, I just though I would voice my opinion on my angers towards poor communicators...

The next step

It's funny how people move on in life. It seems some people are always caught up in the past, others are trying to live their life through others, or that certain groups just live in a pipe-dream that isn't anything near reality. Upon reflection I realized that I was one that tried to live my life by comparing myself to others and trying to one up them in a sense (not living through just trying to be as good as the best for say). As of late I realized that this was, for lack of better words, retarded. Over the past few months I have found myself to have a greater level of inner peace and in turn this has made me a fair bit happier. I now know that you need to set goals and that those goals should be ones that mean something to you on an interpersonal basis rather than goals that are pearly status related or made on a remote desire . I guess we will find out where this takes me over the next few months; I know thus far I have become more productive, creative and caring. Its funny that I seem to have a greater sense of where I want to be at in the next few years and I think I almost have an idea how to get there.

Endless Hours

Why do I put school things off for so long? Its really quite puzzling, I hate the idea of sitting idle, being un productive but for some reason I would rather be lazy than do my school work. I don't even know why it is anymore, my work really is only as hard as I make it, basically if I read I'm set but yeah I seem to not want to do this. Maybe I just like to test the limits of procrastination (if that makes sense). Whatever pushes me to do this needs to stop, i know if i vou not to do it i will anyway, does anyone have a solution :s !? Anyway enough complaining, time to hit the books.